I can’t exactly say, “Oh look, I’ve entered another beautiful year of my life” 🙂
Because honestly, for about a year now, I just haven’t been able to move from age 29 to 30 :D.
Jokes aside, today is really my birthday. Pfttt… When I think about it, I’m like “oh my God, when did I get this old?” :).
Seriously, when did I grow up this much? I still play games on the computer there’s no way I’m that grown up!!! Moooom!!!!
It feels like just yesterday I was throwing my fallen baby teeth onto the roof of the coal shed in our backyard.
Just yesterday my mom would iron the lace collars my grandma crocheted, every Sunday evening before school.
Just yesterday my mom bought me the “red coat” I loved so much for my birthday.
Just yesterday I was wearing those six-rubber shoes that I truly believed made me run faster during recess.
Just yesterday we were drawing hopscotch on the street with chalk, playing tag, dodgeball, jump rope…
Just yesterday I was making a “toy house” for myself between two chairs, playing with my dolls. The tiny bed and quilt my mom sewed for my doll…
Just yesterday my first heartache, my first disappointments.
Just yesterday me and my brother recording tapes together at home. Record our voices on the cassette player. Then listen to it over and over again.
Just yesterday were my first days at university and then my graduation.
Going to my first job interview, trembling like a leaf.
Just yesterday… the biggest disappointments, then the most beautiful days after them, then more storms, then more beautiful days…
Beautiful days chasing sad days, sad days chasing beautiful days… then moments to catch my breath, then again both sorrow and joy. Everything, absolutely everything, feels like yesterday.
Life may seem short, but it is long and challenging. There are times when you don’t even recognize yourself. Life is everyone’s own journey — and if you have loved ones beside you, you are truly blessed.
Most of my birthdays used to be sad, but for the last years ever since Zeynep was born even my birthdays have become unbelievably beautiful. In a way, my daughter’s birth was also my rebirth.
Today is my birthday.
I thank God for everything in my life.
For having my Daughter
For my mother, father, and brother being alive and healthy.
For having a job.
and For always giving me “one more chance.”
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